Reprogramming - Rediscovering myself everyday

By watedroplet

Just like the author, Robert Kiyosaki, after leaving my job and not being able to land a new profession yet, I had time, and my mind was full of doubts, anxiety, and every emotion that said, "Your decision of quitting your job was wrong." At this time, my heart was busy searching for "What went wrong?" It was trying to answer, "Why were things not happening as they were planned in my mind?" Days passed, months swapped, and years also had gone by, but I had no answer. I was inclined towards various self-reflective Christian books that time. Those books helped me to understand who I am, just like the author who took a personality development course to discover himself. I was also inclined towards psychology to understand my own self. I continued studying it and discovering myself. 

Actually, my self-discovery journey began years before I joined my first profession, but it was not complete, and I still had things that I wanted to hold and cherish but were not necessary. The point is this journey of self-discovery is a process, and it unfolds in its own time, which is well rewarding. 

When I joined my first profession, I felt something in me was being forced to change into something I never ever wished to become again: the meaner and more self-centered person. I always wanted to do good and be available to others when they needed me. That was the only thing that was in friction at that time. 

After years, when I left my job, I found I was already wearing some other colors in my personality. I started to reflect on this and try to change it. It did not transform instantly, but it took much of my mindful awareness and acceptance of everything, followed by mindful practice, to incorporate the good ones that dropped off in the tug-of-war with self and achievements. 

I was a mad achiever before this season began in my life. I used to forget everything but my achievement. Yes, achievements are essential but not at the cost of hurting others, overburdening others, forgetting family, etc. I was introduced to a new concept of success, which is achieved by being together.  

Reprogramming was needed to be successful. 

I was reminded of this state again recently when I met one of my colleagues who is doing the same things I used to do when I wanted to achieve something: ignoring every other thing, just focused on achieving whatever happens. In that course, I saw her missing the small happy moments with herself: the happiness you get when you sit and laugh with your family members, happiness when you complete your work as gratitude for your family, happiness in cooking, happiness in painting, happiness in embroidery, etc. I used to postpone them all for studies. Now also at times, I do this and make my life miserable, but then I can smell the discomfort caused by this negligence. Those are the moments when I have to pause and reprogram myself. 

I have to develop myself every day. It is a never-ending process. Even after years of practice and self-understanding, even now at times I forget that I am not listening to my own needs. I have to develop a habit of rediscovering myself every day. It is not just yesterday or today; it is every day. If I don't do this, I might miss the dark transformations that sweep in without warnings.  

This post is a part of Blogchatter A2Z Challenge 2026 and backlink to www.theblogchatter.com 


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